Thoughts on Love

Here i am once again here's the update... its almost April... and in May i will be moving from Salt Lake City to Chicago to sell security systems for a company called icon... I chose the Company because my good friend and roommate Jordan Leaming is managing that office. He got me a good deal and i trust him... which can't be said of a lot of salesmen i know... i value honest sales and true promises... Due to the job my look will be changing a lot... Which will make my mother happy... She currently is ashamed of the way i look... so much so that she refuses to put up a recent picture of me in her house because it wouldn't fit the House's house strict guidelines... Probably because it to her illustrates all the way's i have failed in her eyes.

" this is my current look and I'll admit I do look a lot better holding an angel"

I just got back from Arizona last Wednesday where i got to see my sister Lindsey and her awesome family that's the newest addition in my arms... Its funny how little kids just look past the things that so many adults can't... Even though I had to explain to Emma every five minutes how i got a ring of metal in my lip... she still wanted everything to do with me... Even the baby... did nothing but love me and want to laugh at my funny face... That's why i love little kids... they just love... no matter what... and they definitely can see who people really are... I don't really have a reason for looking the way i do... maybe cause for most of my life I've been told not to look like this... and any one that knows me knows how much that works... At any rate i am grateful this night as i reflect on my life the thing that is on my mind is love... How easily professed and yet how conveniently not shown by actions... I definitely struggle with it sometimes... For me i want to make sure every one feels loved by me... just so i don't feel like a bad person... However for me sometimes it boils down to me not backing it up... So that's an update on how i am feeling and whats going to happen in my life in the near future...

One more person in my life i need to brag on... is My little brother Daniel... He has really matured into an amazing young man... i got the opportunity to spend some time with him while i was in Arizona and I am in awe of how committed to everything he believes in... I ran an errand with him in which we ended up in a store called Bev Mo which is a store that sells various drinks with the majority of them alcoholic... I've never seen anyone hug a soda isle more than Daniel... It is so refreshing to know that he is firm in his beliefs and that's what makes him happy... AND EVEN THOUGH I DO NOT CHOOSE HIS LIFE... I respect him for living a life that brings him happiness... well its getting early in the morning again... i love ya all hope your day brings you prosperity and happiness
love
Matt Leatham